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This Mask by 1800fuckme, literature

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This Mask

Sitting here in my head Listening to the past flow Why do I feel so lost All these songs sung long ago Still feel so connected Yet know nothing No longer a sorrowful teen Now older Not wiser Feel as though I am drowning In nothing I'm now a mum I must grow So they grow We both learn But hollow Feel so hollow Sitting here Alone I'm adulting now don't you know The mask I place upon my face Happy So happy But fake No feelings Empty The Mask I place upon my face Changes Cracks This mask Suffocates Feel as though I am drowning In nothing Everything Myself This mask I place upon my face Hides nothing Hides everything Pretending I gasp No breath I gasp But breathing This mask I place upon my face No one knows This mask I place upon my face How do they not know This mask I place upon my face Do they not know me This mask I place upon my face Will I always wear it This mask upon my face My face My mind breaks

Feeling The Sorrow Creep In by 1800fuckme, literature

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Feeling The Sorrow Creep In

sitting here lost sitting here cold sitting here why i dont know anymore i dont care anymore sitting here without you sitting here lost everything i dont know anymore i dont care anymore one by one everyone left one by one i was left now on my own sorrow creeping in when did it all go wrong time moving on everything the same dark little gloomy space sitting here in my corner light fading out sitting here by myself just waiting all the books i read as a child all the princes saving pretty woman when will mine come when will the light come when will i no longer be cold sitting here in my corner gloomy little

leaving you, leaving me by 1800fuckme, literature

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leaving you, leaving me

its time for me to go now snuff out the candles and say goodnight snuff out the candles and hug me good bye miss you now my dear as i decent and climb them stairs so low blinde now by my tears so dry cont cry now my dear i have not gone in death sigh now in such worry for i have gone from your side but dont worry no dont shed one tear for me for i love you for im yours forever now my sweet remeber me and the way i are for i am always yours

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This Mask by 1800fuckme, literature

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This Mask

Sitting here in my head Listening to the past flow Why do I feel so lost All these songs sung long ago Still feel so connected Yet know nothing No longer a sorrowful teen Now older Not wiser Feel as though I am drowning In nothing I'm now a mum I must grow So they grow We both learn But hollow Feel so hollow Sitting here Alone I'm adulting now don't you know The mask I place upon my face Happy So happy But fake No feelings Empty The Mask I place upon my face Changes Cracks This mask Suffocates Feel as though I am drowning In nothing Everything Myself This mask I place upon my face Hides nothing Hides everything Pretending I gasp No breath I gasp But breathing This mask I place upon my face No one knows This mask I place upon my face How do they not know This mask I place upon my face Do they not know me This mask I place upon my face Will I always wear it This mask upon my face My face My mind breaks

Lovers Murder by 1800fuckme, literature

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Lovers Murder

Her sorrowful sobs welcome me into the room I walk over to the bed, step by step Her head tosses and turns as she hears me approach Her arms try so franticly to be freed from the ropes I site next to her and pull the blindfold from her eyes They show fear her eyes do, so pleading to be free I put the knife to her face, and caress her cheek with the blade A whimper escapes her taped mouth, as the blade cuts into her skin My thumb rubs against the cut, smudging her blood Slowly I lift the tape from her mouth, letting out frightened cries and pleading sorrows of freedom My finger shushes her, pressing against her lips, as a coo soothin

Party Death by 1800fuckme, literature

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Party Death

I raise my cup to the ceiling As my life has come down with a blow I place the cup down on the table Look so dreamily up As noises come so horribly down from above Step by step up the stairs They come to me louder, louder still The hand so shaking on the railing As my eyes look at the door Step by step I come so closer still I stop just as I reach out to the knob At a crash is heard from inside My breath in drawn in, and a step back But they keep on coming I step closer and reach again This time opening the door, to my room As my feet rest on the inside of my room The sound of the crashing stops I look around at my things

I lay Myself To Death by 1800fuckme, literature

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I lay Myself To Death

people talking shouting, at my head i hear not a word said from there lips my mind, my soul, me i dont wont to hear there bikering my eyes well up, and my ear hotten as my feet bring me to my room my arms bring out and slam the door, lock my body is flug, apon my bed as my hot tears run my head is apon the pillow, wetting it cover as my lungs heev in the air my body seems to be adreamed my mind is left with the yelling, my heart stone dead my fingers glide over the blade, and my eyes well up again i drop the blade, stech out my arm, and glid my fingers over my scars for all the past fight and fits for all the times im in my r

A Night For Fun, But Misstakes by 1800fuckme, literature

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A Night For Fun, But Misstakes

One night drinking starts with friends Four teens, lots of drinks, lots of time The night is young, the fire hot The burnning in his eyes for her Like the flames itself The night was cool, not a drop Tents picked up, ready for what ever Mushmellows on sticks, drinks in hand She see's him, so cute so grand he is no milloner, but just a 16 year old boy That night all get drunk, all so out of it mother, farther of one of the kids laughing so happyly, at the staggering teens The two kids, falling for each other, so hoplessly find them selves, being pushed into a relationship Nether complain, nether shout, nether ask not one questio

Its Just Not Right by 1800fuckme, literature

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Its Just Not Right

Bang bash, hit crash No silence in my head Banging in my head Bashing in my mind Hitting ion my skull Crashing in my mind No silence anywhere Can't hear not a word said Faces looking at me Lips moving words not said All I hear Is the jackhammer on my mind Drilling, digging into my thoughts Laying so still White grim faces, dragging me off Faces so still Tear streaked cheeks Watching me, talking to me But why can't I hear They talk I listen But not a word do I hear They cover my body They cover my face They cover their faces with there hands I hear them now Sobbing and not a word said I hear them now But why can't th

Comith And Takith by 1800fuckme, literature

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Comith And Takith

Stab Slash Cut Bash Life Death Horror Love So many images swimming through my head Lights dimming flashing fading Where go thou with my life? Art thou the angel of life? Or ist thou the angel of death? Laying still no life to be seen To thee we see, not but a dead copes The underworld or havens above Has comith and takith your soul We lay here still, with tears dripping A tear a second for thee not here with us The tears for a thousand broken hearts For thee has comith and takith our hearts Drifting through thous day with dread As a black death, an angel of death Has comith and takith our love ones away Drink now the brow of

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Falling now so deep inside by 1800fuckme, literature

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Falling now so deep inside

Falling again Down that long tunnel of nothing See the truth within the lies And don’t forget your mothers wise Don’t forget the evil men See the truth within the lies But that’s what you get When he kisses you Falling now so deep inside Loving the feeling but gestures lies Lovely melody playing softly Mood set so swiftly laughing fun Laying there so drugged out But that’s what you get for falling again Down that long tunnel of nothing Lovely melody playing softly Don’t forget the evil men But cant hear your mothers wise Falling now so deep inside Loving the feeling but gestures lies Laying there s

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About 1800fuckme

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Australia
Deviant for 18 years
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Current Residence: a house that jack built
Favourite genre of music: Anything With A Beat
Operating System: whats that?
MP3 player of choice: any that work
Wallpaper of choice: somthing dark, death related ;P
Skin of choice: My Skin
Favourite cartoon character: Betty Boo
Personal Quote: Life = Death Death = Life

Favourite Movies

Corps Bride

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

dont have one, there all good

Favourite Writers

Anybodie who writes good

Favourite Games

hid and seek, without the seek part

Tools of the Trade

teeth and a fast mouth

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leaving....again

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hey yea well im leaving again.... hopfully i will be back sooner rather then later and then i will actully pit more then one thing up rofl anyways, i do miss looking at your stuff and i do! i just dont comment lol or i do...if i want to anyways, yea its like 12.30 in the morning on this now lovly wensday and i shll be leaving laters...much laters but for now im going to bed

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hey guys

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im back again omg i havnt forgotten how to use the computer yet lol i miss seeing all your pretty things i do look at them i swerr but i just dont get around to commenting im going home for a week in 2 weeks lol yay i cant wait to see my friends where i live now gets boring sumtimes well all the time cant wait till im 18....or untill i atleast have a fucking car! i need to get one of them...and my p's lol still on l's how sucky is that anyways, misses yas Mwah! byes people

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i miss every1

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ok so...its the 4th or march and omg! deviant's never stop!!! i had over 500!!! and nearly same amount in journals~! i dont have the time to read and respond to them :( sorry, it would be great to go through every single one but i simply dont have the time i havnt done much in the way of drawing and writing but i did do a few tattoo desighs! but i have nothing to get them up here with :P so unfair anyways nothing much has happened im single as always, jobless and educationless how fun lol hope you guys are good and all's well Mwah!

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urban-art-design

thanks for the comment, yep they turned out good hey. she still looks great as always. did you see the new paintings i did of her aswell. only 2 have been posted up but there's 3 in the series. also i won second prize in portraiture at the ippy art awards with a painting of aqau, the one with the green and yellow hair... so how's things with you out there... uni for me next year, yay

hey sorry for the uber late reply

dont have the net, moved back down to near my mum!
have a little girl now, shes 6mths now
great work on the winning...pix look awsome!

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urban-art-design

thanks nic, your sculpy dulpies look good at your place all laxed in the lounge chair, but why oh why is the lady sitting and the man standing

Thanks for the favourite.

no problem